Monday, October 31, 2005
Oh well, being a heartbreaker isn't that easy anyway. Ignore my previous post about being a heartbreaker. I deleted it anyway.
Blame it on me as much as you want to then. Ya, my fault so what. I have no intentions on cheating on your feelings. I really wanted to try it out with you but I couldn't because my heart still lies with you-all-know-who. Stop acting like a darn big boss you! I will not want to contact you or meet you anymore, because you chose not to be friends. And I don't lose out losing a guy like you because you are stupid! Stupid! Get it?
P/S. I'm not talking bout **HIM. Don't get it the wrong way. =))
Anyway, I want a ZEN MICRO. I need a ZEN MICRO. Somebody please be my sugarpapa and buy it for me. Please!!! Or maybe an iPOD Mini will do!!! IN PINK!!!
Not forgetting,
HAPPY DEEPAPUASA!
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Poor blackies!
Audrey is a happy happy girl! I bear no pain he left me. Tell me I'm so clever please. But kinda miss his brother though.
Yikes! So cute!
I will move on with life, err.. Already moved on with life. =D
Deuce Bigalow is a niceee show. Maybe I don't really catch what they're talking about, I still laugh at those stupid acts. Muahahaha.
Okay. Back to topic. Bangala, bangla, bangladeshi, or bangladesh?! Until now I don't know how to spell that word.
Let's not go overboard, because I might get arrested for writing a racist blog entry! I DON'T WANT.
We call them banglas because they're from a foreign country which I apparently do not have to mention. And we do know how to differentiate local indians and banglas, right?
Some girls will know how irritating it is when they get teased by banglas. Obviously I too know it lah. And maybe because of this I have a funny feeling towards them. Because all the banglas look alike, I don't know which one of them teased and molested me before (I am not ashamed cos I'm the victim dude!), therefore I am sibeh aware of banglas around me. In general, men lah.
BUT.
When I see those xiaohunhun shouting, "Oie bangla! !@$%^&*", I feel so sorry for them know! What right do you have to tell them off in this way? Think of how jialat they are..
THEY COME ALL THE WAY TO S'PORE, WORKING AS A CONSTRUCTION WORKER, EARNING 30BUCKS A DAY STILL NOT ENOUGH? STILL LET YOU KPKB?! SIAO BO?
Although I hate banglas, I keep mum and not go round !#$%^&*-ing them. I hate this. For the very first time I am shielding a bangla! YAY.
But this is seriously funny. Laugh people!
Courtesy of Herbs! xD Ciaos..
Thursday, October 27, 2005
It's the 27th... We were supposed to be 3 months old........
Sorry people. Not in the mood to update these few days.
I'm feeling a little bit better. A little bit only hor. =/ Last night I dreamt of him again. =X Forget it.. Anyway it's heartbreaking when he said he wanna be alone and when he uploaded pics of the other girls but not mine! I know lah. I am in no status to expect him to upload my stupid face, and one thing you guys should get it clear, I'm not jealous. Just that I envy them, because they can get to be in his gallery! That means they seem important to him right? Because I uploaded pics of my brothers too, and they're as important. Correct? Nvm...
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Many things that I wanna tell somebody who was once so important to me, and still is. But I cannot. Because to tell everything to that someone needs alot of courage, and that's what I am lack of.
This blog is my precious, because I let all the rubbish out here. And I will do it now as this burden is to heavy to be kept in my heart.
I was too naive to imagine that my life was a fairytale, because fairytales always end with a 'happily ever after'. I told myself not to trust any of these anymore, but I cant do it. Weak eh?
Read this boring story of mine.
On a particular day I was at a friend's place staying overnight, using the laptop, and crappy *K came and talked to me on MSN. As usual, he asked me to intro some girls. -_-" Jokingly, I asked him to intro some guys to me in return (I was still single that time). Then came *J into our conversation. Ya.. kp-ed and kp-ed.
J seemed a nice guy to me. Being the playful sort, I thought maybe he would make a nice boyfriend. =P We started talking on MSN, then the phone. About a week later, we decided that we should meet up.
I met him, and he was really a nice guy, I must say. So I started to develop a small little cute crush on him. =D We went out about twice then suddenly a question popped out of his mouth and surprised me. Obvious what was the question is right..
I was shocked, stunned, everything. I didn't know how to answer or what to say and do. Well, maybe I should just try out because I've got a crush on J! Yay.
But when I realised my true feelings for him, I felt bad. Really bad. It was only a like, and not love. I tried very hard to love, but I couldn't. I kept everything to myself because I didn't want to hurt anyone. And someone really has got to get hurt, it has to be me. Because I'm the bad guy here.
Until one day, a quarrel broke out and led us to a breakup. I was totally fine with it, I did not even shed a tear. That was the strong me.
J regretted and asked me for another chance. I was reluctant at first, but I thought, why not give it another shot?
Feelings started to develop after time. And it grew deeper and deeper each day. I know this is not gonna be forever, thus I told myself not to put my whole heart into this relationship. I thought I was strong, but I was very wrong.
Another quarrel led me to break up with J few weeks ago, which I regretted very much. I put down my pride, called him and apologise for my temper. Then we're alright after that! Yay.
Many a times I cannot stand this stupid guy, but I know I love him. Yes, LOVE. Because of this word that touched my heart, I know I cannot bear to let it go. For everything that he has done for me, and the word 'LOVE', I tolerated.
J started working and we began to drift apart. Time have been tight for us, calls have lessen and the gap is bigger day by day.
Eventually we came to a decision that we should go and think about what we both really want. I am sure about what I wanted - to be with him, though I know I would still get hurt in the end. I didn't know why. And he thought that we should go our seperate ways.
I am sad. Very sad that I burst out in tears. I wanted so badly to hug someone but there was no one for me at that time. I felt like collapsing.
I know everything takes time, be it letting go or getting back together. But who understands how I feel now? I was lying to myself, trying to be strong in front of my friends. It's just living a life of misery. And I am so very sure that it is up to me to give up, but I don't want to. Go ahead and say I'm stupid. When it comes to love, a person is blind. I am so blinded by everything now.
It is not anyone's fault here. In a r/s, no one is to blame. He is not a bad guy.. He's someone whom I am so happy being together with, and I'm sure he feels the same way too. But because of this gap, he is confused. I don't know what to do now except cry, cry, and cry.
This love.. Ended after 2 months 25 days.
It's so painful. Don't talk to me about fate, it sucks. I don't believe in that. Because fate is in your own hands. You create your own destiny.
J: Thanks for everything, be it happiness or sorrows. I love you.
I will wait, patiently. Silly? Stupid? Whatever. I like. =)
Getting hurt is inevitable. I don't know what decision to make. Should I cry or give up? Do you feel the same? Should I love you, forget about you or continue to hide and run away from reality?
Friday, October 21, 2005
I was a fool, still a fool, will be a fool....
Forget about that. This post wasn't supposed to be in this colour too. Just that I don't know how to change it back to it's default one.
I am an angry girl today. The sun is making me worse.
Don't pester me when I'm reluctant to do anything, or I'll explode in front of you, like now. I will not answer your phone calls, no matter how many calls you try and bomb me, I WILL NOT.
Even if you appear right at my doorstep, I will open the stupid door and tell you that you've got the wrong house and slam it right at your face.
Don't call up my sister. Fuck you, understand? Stop being so thick-skinned, like telling her that you're coming up to my place to search for my things.
I am not, and WILL not, lend you what you asked for. Because whatever I have with you are either dirty, or I won't get it back, or I get them back in a fucking condition. I do not intend to take back what's mine, because I know I can't get them back and they're not in the condition I used to have them anymore. What's the point? You can have them all to yourself.
Ahem. As you can see, someone whom I'm talking about here is so damn thick-skinned. Shall not say anymore. I'm so angry.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Today is Science Practical day! >,<
The school that I was posted to wasn't a good school. I was told to report at 7.45am, but at that time that stupid school had just started their morning assembly. Worse thing was, the guard said, "Private candidates please wait outside."
What was that for? We were told to report to that sucky place at 7.45 and you won't let us in? Made us wait like asses outside the gate. Then the paper was supposed to start at 8am, and you let us in at 8?!
I am not so aggitated because I started my paper late, but you should at least be more organised, okay maybe not 'you' but MOE. Even when we went up the classrooms, we didn't know which respective rooms we were supposed to report to, and then still got to find our names one by one, class by class? What a waste of time. BOO..!
The practical part was alright. Just follow instructions on the paper will do the trick. Heh. But the questions was.. S-T-U-P-I-D. Maybe I shouldn't blame the paper, but myself for not revising instead. Wahaha.
I was making alot of noise during the prac, especially Bio. Because my cylinder and other glass apparatus went 'cling clang clung' all the way. And I was complaing to the teacher about the gas smell all the way. Hahaha. Sorry people. Robin was worse. He caused a small explosion while lighting up the bunsen burner. Gong gong right? LOL.
So tired that I took a nap till 7 in the evening just now. I only had 3 hours of sleep last night okie. zZz~
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Look at this cute boy!
Dear's cute lil' brother! =D He's only a yr old.. How tall..
Aww.. He wants to kiss me! =D haha.. My face sucks again.
And I bought this!
Sorry peeps! No time to update more! -gone-
I received an unexpected email today! I AM BLUR. Because I'm not in NP, and don't understand this.
Dear students,
You may know by now that Blogging is a very popular internet past time and may have your own personal Blog site or participated in some.
Whatever your blogging experience, here are some very important info to protect you.
Recently 2 bloggers were charged under the Sedition Act for posting insulting and reckless racial comments on the internet. One of the blogger was jailed for a month while another was given a one-day jail term and a maximum fine of $5,000. (ST, Oct 8).
In another case of 5 junior college students punished for criticising 2 teachers and a vice-principal on the Net. These students were suspended for 3 days and their parents were also informed. (ST, Sep 27)
While you Blog, please stay on the right side of the Law and stay sensitive to other people around you. Do not blog on things that promote feelings of ill-will and hostility between different races or classes of the population of Singapore (Section 4 of the Sedition Act).
Students should use the blog appropriately and not to misuse it to arouse social disorder or 'flame' a person online. In a multi-racial society like in Singapore, every citizen or resident should respect other races and religions. As all Bloggers are personally responsible for what they blog, please be careful.
Regards
Computer Center
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
What. Is NP trying to warn me or what.
Herbs is so bo liao.. CALL ME MUMMY, DUMBBB! =D
Love Message:
Listen up 'cos it's about time. Love and sex is still no crime. A big disease With a little name isserious and it's no game. Everybody needs information, Here - there - in every nation. Go out, havefun but live and learn. Protect yourself that's our concern.
Protection can save our life so free your mind, enjoy the drive. Keep control, don't drive too fast,save your soul and make it last. HIV is my worry, you rather be save than sorry. Awareness of what'sgoing on. Do the right thing, get it on.
Love and sex is all around. Don't forget it, if you found someone for satisfaction, do think firstand use protection. Sex is fun but don't be silly, just make sure you wear a Billy Boy.Don't burn your hands, Trust my word 'cos we are friends.
Friends are friends and what we are for is to keep everybody coming back for more.Love - without taking a chance. Don't risk your life, It's in your hands, everybody should take a standSpread the word over the land, from down under, from above. Hear the message of love.
Thanks Herbs. xD
Okay lah. I cannot sleep again.
I've got nothing to do so I tried on the blouse that mum bought for me at Esprit this evening! xD
She's really got a great timing. This blouse costs $109.90, but she got it at only $39.90! Esprit's having 70% sales now, think on selected items only. Btw, it's the one in blue-green. Have to wear something inside one lah.
Forgive me, my face suck, my hair is so messy, therefore...
I look so fat above! -.-"
I got no make-up on. Ya. Spit all you want.
See the 2 flowers there? I wanted to unpin them and put them somewhere else on the blouse. But this Esprit is sibeh niao, they go and sew the flowers to the shirt!!! THEN THEY PUT A SAFETY PIN ON IT FOR WHAT?
Okay. This shall not be a long post. Nights people.
Monday, October 17, 2005
YIKES. I cannot fall asleep. Audrey is having so many late nights nowadays.
The night is so silent, I can hear my neighbour's alarm clock going "CUCKOO! CUCKOO!" away.
I was furious, very, when I saw my sister's blog this evening. Because she copied my entier layout, which includes the navigation bar, entry box, even the colour codes, every single thing I had on my blog except the background and profile! DAMMIT.
WHY?
I don't know how she thought of my layout when she saw it, maybe nice, if not she wouldn't copied everything. She was curious about my background like how I did it myself and how did I made it fixed. All day long she was pestering me for the htmls while I was sleeping! I started to get irritated.
When I woke up I saw the damn blog and I was like.. WHAT THE FUCK. She said she logged in to my account because I had my password stored. Tell me how different is it from hacking and stealing?
Although most people use skins and layouts from Blogskins, that is not considered as stealing right? I meant STEAL because I made this layout myself! grrr.. Yes, I took the skin from Blogskins/Evone (the skin-maker), but at least I change the entire thing! I ADDED THE NAVIGATION BAR BORDER, CHANGED THE DIMENSIONS, COLOURS CODES, BACKGROUNDS, EVERYTHING! That is not stealing, is it?
But I say, logging in to another person's account is totally not the right thing to do! I could have guide her to edit hers into something better, instead of giving her the htmls! Correct? So what if she gives me the entire credit?! I DON'T WANT.
FUCK.
Anyway everything's alright now. I nagged so she could change a new layout. xD I'm not trying to say anything about my sister lah. I'm just kinda pissed. She's still a lil' girl ma. =D I AM NOT PETTY! Go take a look at this.
Also, this post goes out to all the readers out there, SKINS ARE COPYRIGHTED, unless from the authorised skin provider or with permission..
Saturday, October 15, 2005
What a boring Saturday is today (is my english correct?). Anyway, rotting at home is quite a good idea la. The sun is so hot, like a floating chicken nugget in the sky. Then I will melt if I step out of home.
Mum's bringing me to Clementi for dinner later. I was like.. CLEMENTI?! You know so chicken-damn well where in the whole world we stay and why CLEMENTI?! Sooooo far lehhhhh!! Can die. Of all places in Singapore, why there? Why can't it be somewhere like Semb, AMK, Woodlands???
Ah. Talking about Woodlands. Is it pronounced as wood-learns or wood-lends? The MRT pronounced it as wood-learns but I've heard people saying wood-lends. Nevermind. Don't bother.
I am so crazy about those small plushies that McDonald's selling! You know? You know?!!
Few years ago they came up with these!
I didn't collect all of the weddings. I wasn't so kiasu at that time. xD
And then I bought these super small ones in Bangkok 4 years ago.
And now..
They look so happy together! okay i'm mad.
TADAH! I hung them on my curtains. I KNOW THEY ARE MEANT TO BE BOOKMARKS.
I am very nice, so brought a friend back for them!
Look here blackie. Blackie's eyes are always looking upwards. Wakakaka.
Actually it wasn't me who bought Bad Badz Maru a.k.a. Black Ghost by me. Dear bought it. =D He knows me best.
Anyway YOURS TRULY IS SHORT OF THE WHITE PUPPY (FORGOT IT'S NAME) TO COMPLETE ALL FOUR. WOULD ANY KIND SOUL SELL IT TO ME IF YOU HAVE IT? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! LOVES.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
OH MY GAWD. 2 FREAKING HOURS AT ALJUNIED MRT WAITING FOR RONALD. Lucky Fat was there with me, at least I have company. We wanted to go to a Fila warehouse sale which closes at 8pm and today's the last day, apparently we have to reach there by 7 or something? But guess what time that faggot reached? 9 DUMB O'CLOCK. =D How wonderful.
In the end we ended up at the malay bazaar somewhere in Paya Lebar. It's fun looking at their clothes, slippers, whatever and especially the food! N I C E. I was curious when they had 'bak-gua'. Then I realised it's the fake 'bak-gua'. Maybe I should name it 'gu-gua' instead. Because they used beef instead of pork. I tried and the beef goes "toing toing toing" when you chew. Yummy! Ron tried the japanese pizza. Not really nice lah. OMG. The worse thing is they fry froggiessssss. FROGS! *faint*
I should have brought my digicam along so I can put up the disgusting fried froggy.
Ok I'm off to bed peopleeee. Nights.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
I WILL LAUGH! AND LAUGH MY LUNGS OUT.
Because of this chat log that my computer saved.Dearie and I were arguing in MSN because of the ugly bat and lightning on his nickname one day..
[03:11:05 AM] drey? : y got the bat n lightning -.--
[03:11:17 AM] :[liquid?:[ : i put wan
[03:11:19 AM] :[liquid?:[ : nice hor
[03:11:20 AM] :[liquid?:[ : haha
[03:11:27 AM] drey? : not nice la
..Okay. The nice and not nice goes on until...
*He removes the ugly lightning but not that bat*
[03:13:38 AM] :[liquid?:[ : ncienicenicenicenice?
[03:13:50 AM] :[liquid?:[ : nice
[03:13:54 AM] :[liquid?:[ : i dun care
[03:13:56 AM] drey? : NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO
[03:14:00 AM] :[liquid?:[ : idun care
[03:14:17 AM] :[liquid?:[ : enough liao hor
*peace*
[03:14:40 AM] drey? : gb
[03:14:49 AM] :[liquid?:[ : cannot play la
[03:14:52 AM] :[liquid?:[ : idiot
[03:14:52 AM] drey? : y
[03:15:04 AM] :[liquid?:[ : not same server ma
[03:15:12 AM] drey? : oh ya
[03:15:16 AM] drey? : u help me play la
[03:15:21 AM] drey? : den i play for u =D
[03:15:26 AM] :[liquid?:[ : dun wan
[03:15:37 AM] drey? : i go play 1st u dun slp
[03:15:47 AM] drey? : i play 1hr come back =D
[03:15:47 AM] :[liquid?:[ : nonono
[03:16:19 AM] drey? : later i nudge u must reply
*Argues. I want to play but he don't let me play!!*
But I stil insist.
[03:16:55 AM] drey? : ok
[03:17:00 AM] drey? : later i miss call u
[03:17:11 AM] :[liquid?:[ : dun call mi
[03:17:14 AM] :[liquid?:[ : i wan slpslpslp
[03:17:28 AM] drey? : u go slp N0W tmr wake up early
[03:17:34 AM] :[liquid?:[ : dun wan already
I am angry.
[03:17:40 AM] drey? : den WHAT U WAN
[03:17:50 AM] drey? : aiya nvm la
[03:17:51 AM] :[liquid?:[ : u dun play 1st
[03:17:54 AM] drey? : den'
[03:18:02 AM] :[liquid?:[ : nvm nvm
[03:18:08 AM] :[liquid?:[ : u go play gb
[03:19:14 AM] drey? : dun like so not happy lidat can anot kaos..
*He didn't reply*
[03:19:53 AM] You have just sent a Nudge!
[03:20:07 AM] drey? : OK LA DUN COME FIND ME LA
[03:20:26 AM] :[liquid?:[ : wad lar
[03:20:30 AM] :[liquid?:[ : go toliet rite
[03:20:32 AM] :[liquid?:[ : cannot ar
[03:20:46 AM] drey? : how i noe rite
[03:21:02 AM] drey? : i tot u pekcek den dun reply lor
*starts aruguing again -.-*
[03:23:25 AM] drey? : attitude!!!!!!!!
[03:23:30 AM] :[liquid?:[ : u dun have
[03:23:34 AM] drey? : where got? nv lor.
[03:23:42 AM] :[liquid?:[ : nv than nv lo
*argues* kuakuakua.....
[03:27:44 AM] drey? : WHATEVER LA. U WANNA THINK IM UNREASONABLE GO AHEAD. DONT CALL ME ANYMORE. I MEAN IT.
[03:27:54 AM] :[liquid?:[ : okie
I exploded. Damn asshole. LOL.
Few minutes later...
[03:52:14 AM] :[liquid?:[ : wei!!
[03:52:25 AM] :[liquid?:[ : sorry la
[03:52:17 AM] :[liquid?:[ : dun angry le la
HA. HA. HA!
*talk talk talk*
[04:30:16 AM] :[liquid?:[ : bERI CUTE HOR <-----refering to me! hahahaahaha.
[04:30:28 AM] drey? : diam la kp
[04:30:33 AM] :[liquid?:[ : kp wad
He is so cute. BUT.....
*sends me a file called CHINESE SONG*
[04:41:55 AM] drey? : wad song
[04:41:57 AM] drey? : u dun bluff
[04:41:59 AM] :[liquid?:[ : u confrm nv listen b4
[04:42:03 AM] drey? : sure is some lame video (those that chop off human heads)
[04:42:17 AM] drey? : where got songs put CHINESE SONG
[04:42:18 AM] :[liquid?:[ : fuck u la <----- this is not cute anymore! hahahahaha!
*argues and i accept*
Guess what? It's not a video. It's a song! YAY! -.-"
[04:44:30 AM] drey? : orh this song
[04:44:37 AM] :[liquid?:[ : wad orh
[04:44:39 AM] :[liquid?:[ : u dun have
[04:45:35 AM] drey? : later got mix chi xin jue dui de rite
[04:45:45 AM] :[liquid?:[ : u oso sae le
[04:45:51 AM] :[liquid?:[ : mani song mix together
[04:46:02 AM] :[liquid?:[ : of cos got tat stupid song la
Such an asshole right he? LOL. BUT HE IS SO CUTE.
I'M SORRY PEOPLE. PUT UP WITH THE BORING AND LAME CONVERSATIONS WE HAD. BUT I CAN'T HELP NOT LAUGHING WHEN I READ THEM!!
First, name 20 people that you know.
1. Dearie
2. Wendy
3. Priscilla
4. Christine
5. Ting Ting
6. Hanis
7. Jiayi
8. Ronald
9. Denny
10. Fatty
11. Robin
12. ZX
13. Sebas
14. Denis
15. Alan
16. Irene
17. Kenny
18. Cindy
19. Ah Boy
20. Regina
Then, fill this out according to the people you chose!!
Is 9 a boy or a girl?
- Boy.
Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple?
- Haha! Definitely no! I know them well please.
How about 18 and 4?
- Ya. Les. Cool anot?
Does 1 have any siblings?
- Oh yes. I love his baby brotherrrr.
Would you ever date 3?
- Why not duh?
Would you ever date 7?
- Date lah!
Is 16 single?
- Apparently no. She's mad over Malaysia.
What's 15's full name?
- Alan Ho Zhi Keong.
What's 5's middle name?
- Obviously it's TING.
What's 10's hobbies?
- Eating. He's Fatty!
Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?
- Oh maybe they can try gay-ing.
Tell me a random fact about 11
- My brother.
And 1
- I LOVE HIM!
Have you ever had a crush on 8?
- Don't make me die please. NO. NOT NOW. AND WILL NEVER HAVE.
Where does 9 live?
- Sembawang.
What's 4's favorite color?
- Maybe it's pink? =X
Are 5 & 6 best friends?
- They don't know each other at all. How to be best friends?!
Does 7 like 20?
- 7 don't know 20. Maybe they will.
8 like 19?
- Y not? They're video games partners. Haha!
How did you meet 15?
- 3 years ago at Admiralty Mac kp with each other.
Does 10 have any pets?
- Nah.
Is 1 the sexiest person?
- YES. He has the sexiest heart ever.
Have you ever given 13 a hug?
- No. A punch, a slap on the back, a scream.
I WILL HAVE A FANTASTIC MEAL ON WED/THURS BECAUSE MR. BAOBEI IS BRINGING ME TO A SUSHI BUFFET THEN! I PROMISE I WILL GORGE ON WHATEVER DAMN SUSHI I SEE, AND STUFF ALL THE WASABI INTO OTHER PEOPLE'S SUSHI. AND THEN THEY WILL GO SCREAMING AND RUNNING ABOUT FOR WATER SO I CAN HAVE THE WHOLE RESTAURANT TO MYSELF. oh i'm so cruel. I'M KIDDING!!!
Monday, October 10, 2005
WOMAN
If you kiss her you are a gentleman,
if you don't you are not a man.
If you praise her she thinks you are lying,
if you don't you are good for nothing.
If you agree to all her likes you are a wimp,
if you don't you are not understanding.
If you visit her often she thinks that it is boring,
if you don't she accuse you of double crossing.
If you are well dressed she says you are a playboy,
if you don't you are a dull boy.
If you are jealous she says it's bad,
if you don't she thinks you don't love her.
Oh another something I took from Hanis. This bitch has loads of craps. I'm sorry Nurhanis Kamarudin. LOL!
Anyways, I'm alright lah people. Don't worry bout me. Just an ordinary I-am-upset post. Thanks! Loves.
I'm still figuring out how to post in Chinese. Can blogger detect it? I don't think so lor! Stupid.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
To YOU:
What do you exactly want? I have tried to guess, but I don't think I got the answer.
I'm seriously hurt so deeply when you raised your voice at me today. In a heartbeat, tears flowed down my cheeks. I don't know what this means. Just a single shout-at and I cry?! I'm not the girl I used to be anymore.
Eileen once told me, "I envy you so much. Because you are so strong."
Strong? I don't think so. Maybe that was in the past. I have fallen hard. This pain is too unbearable for me to be kept in my heart but who can I tell? Who can understand how I really feel? What's the point of telling you? You ain't serious when talking to me about such stuffs because you think this kind of communication is not necessary, but I am and do.
Did you appreciate whatever I did for you? I prepared and serve lunch for the very first time in my life. I hurt my hand while I prepared food. I picked up cooking skills just for you. I lied to my mum just to be with you. I stopped clubbing because of you. I woke up at 7.30am almost everyday to wake you up. I know all these are not enough. And I should not think this way. But did you appreciate all I did for the least bit?
I did these because I think it is worth it. Don't betray my trust towards you. Don't let me down. Remember what you promised me. Up to now I still think that people who have a dick are all the suckers. Maybe you could change my perspective. Maybe you could be the extraordinary one.
I don't want to fall hard again. Please handle me with care for I am fragile.
I don't like it when you don't answer my calls. I don't like it when you give me excuses. I fucking don't like it when you lie.
Yes, I am possesive and sensitive. But it's because I care. If I didn't care do you think I would be so possesive? I am selfish, love is too.
GET WHAT MY MEANING? GET HOW I FEEL??
From,
Yours Truly.
I AM DETERMINED TO STOP SMOKING FROM TODAY ONWARDS. =D
Because I know, smoking kills. I don't think it's cool, but I don't know why I started it few years ago. I'm so happy for myself. Also, I am happy for Wendy! She stopped after 8 years of heavy smoking. I have this sense of relief in my heart that I won't contract cancer or heart disease now. HAHAHAHA! Stay healthy boo.
But I still have the temptation and urge to light up a damn cigarette. THEREFORE FOR THE SAKE OF MYSELF, AND MY BABYBOY WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT THE AROMA OF CIGARETTES, I WILL RESIST, AND NOT SUCCUMB INTO IT!
I support the government to ban smoking everywhere! It's unbelievable for me to say this but I am now an anti-smoker! I support the people into the 'Fresh Air For Women' campaign! I support the 'Quit-smoking Helpline'! I support everyone who is supporting me! YAY!!
So from today onwards, you will not see me holding even a lighter! I AM HEALTHY.
Friday, October 07, 2005
A pig's sleeping on my bed again! Wonder why there's a pig in my home like almost every day? Because I am known as Miss Airpork by Ronald and the guys, and I rear
I'm thinking what to cook for lunch. Probably bake a muddy-mud-pie for Mr. Pig? He'll enjoy it. Hmm.. Or a dung cake? That's my forte. Wendy the bird bird is coming over now to help me out! 'Help me out' is only to put it in a nicer way. Actually she's coming to teach me how to cook. Hahaha. Because I do not know how to cook a single dish, excluding the Sunny-side-up (mine's not a perfect yolk) and maggie! *embarrassed* Don't mock okay.. Nobody will be surprised knowing this. THEY KNOW I'M THE HECK TYPE. YES YES YES?? xD
I am so disappointed in girls nowadays! Am considering being a butch (did I spell it correctly)? Because I read the entry that Retard Patrol (R.P.) posted and I'm like.. DUH! Those bo liao girls have nothing better to do and they went to set up an account in Friendster to check guys out. It's on my link. Go check that out.
What?! And you call those YANDAO? When I say YANDAO I'm referring to guys like Edison Chen, or maybe David Beckham you dumbasses! Please go get a pair of glasses for goodness sake.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I've got a pig sleeping on my bed now.
Simple Plan goes Ba! Ba! Ba! And I'm all madness over Shania's "From This Moment", gaga over Mariah's "Hero". Ain't I sentimental? xD
From this moment
As long as I live
I will love you
I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give, from this moment on.
How romantic is that?
I'm a tad too crazy about this song. Non-stop 'pirated' Shania's concert. =D~
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Five reasons NOT to be a penis
1. You are bald your whole life. (In case you are wondering, the pubic hair goes around the penis and not on the penis. :D)
2. You have a hole in your head.
3. Your neighbours are nuts.
4. The guy behind you is an asshole.
5. Everytime you are excited, you throw up and then faint.
LOL. Adapted from Hanis
I am sneezing non-stop in front of the computer now and I am getting irritated! Other than that, one of my nostrils has been blocked since yesterday. Can I change a nose?
"I sense something very wrong here." - I posted this entry few days back. Now I realised it's really a VERY wrong. I cannot explain too much over here, it's kind of confidential you see..
If someone important to you keeps something from you that you actually found out yourself, and when you asks him/her about it, he still denies. How wrong is that?
You are sad about the thing you found out (it's really heartbreaking for me), you feel even worse when he/she denies! AM I RIGHT? Say yes.
I blew my top last night, because of someone who is trying to be oh so noble (actually he is not). Fancy telling me, "Okay lor!!!". And I was like, "Shit you bastard. When I say hang up you cannot stop me izzit?!". But I never say like that lah. I just hung up. I was like a volcano erupting like hell.. HELL!
The thought of everything makes me wanna explode. __
Monday, October 03, 2005
I am sooooo.. full of laughter when i saw THIS.
http://yourguysxxxposed.blogspot.com/
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